Out Again


photo credit:Pixabay.com

Okay, so I have been beating myself up about how much of a fool I was. Thinking how could I have fallen for all the things that you did and said.

In my opinion, I have been expending too much energy hating you and dragging up every not so good memory of the brief time I had with you.

Here I am today, sitting in a strange town, miles away from home and I run into your AVI on twitter. Yea I know what you are thinking, there is no running into anyone’s AVI

Okay so I deliberately clicked on and enlarged your picture, staring at that smile. And then I ask myself, why  I am expending so much energy on hating you and trying to paint you black in my mind. (I actually know why, mind you)Might just be easier to relax and allow myself the luxury of missing you. Yea almighty, proud, stubborn me is admitting this even to myself.

As much as you were an ass in the end, I miss you.

I miss you now

I tell myself, Girl! Cut yourself some slack, you are human after all.

All that talk of ice in your heart is a farce. Let it up, let it out now. It’s okay to sometimes miss him.

After all you fell in love with him, after all he connected with your “sapio”. After all you thought you had met that person that finally gets you.

It all felt like a fairytale with just enough reality to make it okay. Just enough imperfection to make you relax on those flurry feelings. Just enough drama to want to fight for it. just enough sympathy to make you want to sacrifice for it.

It is okay to miss him because after all you were able to let down your guard for once and be you.

Girl it’s okay to miss the man that created those butterflies in your stomach.

Miss him Girl, Miss him.

This holding back has taken too much away from you already. It has left you empty, hard and void of emotions.

It’s time to let the incurable romantic out again.



Too tired to give a title

I simply cannot write

Been writing snippets and tossing them aside right in the middle of it for a while now

I have a lot of ideas to write about in my head

But there simply is no fire

And when I can’t feel that fire anything I write simply won’t cut it

I am not sure why this is happening

The only thing I know is

That incurable romantic seems to be dying

I am just listless

I cannot feel anything anymore

Maybe it’s still all in there

Waiting to pop out one day

But right now it’s all quiet in there

It’s all empty

All those things that seem to matter to me don’t mean nothing now

I am simply indifferent

It just feels like nothing can shock me anymore

Maybe one day soon something will ignite that fire again

Make me what to write again

Maybe tomorrow I will visit those drafts and find them worthy enough to share

But today I am just indifferent really

I simply do not care






, , ,


 Photo credit: http://www.trybooking.com


I have kissed a lot of frogs

Always left a trail of slime behind.

Green patches everywhere….

Each time I washed the slime and let it pass.


I have kissed too many frogs

Left enough space for them to hop around and play

With a long rope that stretched for miles and miles.


I have kissed one too many frogs

Smiled while they croaked, did that famous call and the girls came trooping in

Never ran out of lime to clear the slime

Let the bulging eyes rove around

Sat pretty while they spun their lies and lice.


I have kissed one too many frogs

but none as ugly as you…. yes YOU


You don’t Know


Photo Credit: Openclipart.org



You don’t know

How much I love to see your face light up with a smile

That smile that makes you lose ten years off your age

You don’t know how much I can blow you away with my kisses, with my cooking

You don’t know how proud I feel walking beside you

That it feels so natural to slip my hand in yours in public even when I hate PDAs

You don’t know how normal it feels when we communicate with our eyes in a room full of people

You don’t know that I never throw tantrums

That I am usually very controlled, rational and mostly nonchalant.

You don’t know.




I love you Daddy

For being there for me always 

For giving me the best of you

For always knowing when I need you

For always sensing when things aren’t right with me

Thank you because I know you will give your last blood for me

Thank you for being you

Selfless, kind, compassionate

For showing me how to persevere in difficult times

Showing me how to let the stress roll off my shoulders 

Showing me how to be a reliable and dependable person

Showing me how to take every responsibility assigned to me seriously

For loving , for always guiding 

Thank you for giving me the confidence to make my own choices and standing by me even when I make the wrong ones 

Thank you for knowing those things I cannot tell you

Thank you for making me know no matter what I do, your arms are always welcoming, always open.


Baby Girl before you open that door,



And then wait a little longer

Listen to your heart

Listen to your instincts 

They never fail you, have never failed you.

Before you let down your guard,

Before you let them see you

You know you, the romantic 

You the comic


The intellect they can get for free

The comic if you really like them, 

But the romantic you gotta wait.

She might be too strong for them to handle

Too much to take in

Bullshit!  forget that !

She is you 

Not everyone deserves her

Pat her, wrap her, keep her , bound her if you must

But do not let them see her

Because she is everything that you are

The core of your being 

The place where the wells rest

When she is out the intellect dies

She is that part I wish remained locked away forever 

She is that part that hurts always

That part that makes the center of your palm hurt.


love-hearts-silhouette-imageImage credit: silhouettesfree.com

The way you make me feel,

It’s like tingles in my spine.

The way you make me feel,

It’s like fire in my soul

The way you make me feel,

like the most beautiful woman in the world

The way you make me feel,

is like I’m home

I could let you hold me and rub my back

Just stay here for eternity and I would just be content

The way you make me feel is special and its true.

Sustainability Plan


, ,


Photo Credit: juneletters.com


Sustainability plan ! Hmm.
Never taught I would write that in my blog, but as I sit here listening to this presentation on sustainability and transition plan when the donors move out, when the country has to take over, I ponder and I realize I can relate.

Love needs a sustainability plan.

Love is like a plant and it needs to feed to survive. It cannot be sustained without food.

What happens when there is only one source of food? When that source is cut off what does it survive on?
It is long distance and you make all the efforts . You do all the calling. You initiate all the texting. And the other party? Seems to be fine either way:If you are there that is fine , if not then that’s okay too.

It is totally discouraging and like I like to say “love is not enough“. Worse still, one sided love is not enough.

Love is meant to be reciprocal. It’s meant to be two sided to work.

If it is one sided.? It will happen but I can bet my life it will not survive through time .
It will die.
No matter how long that one side tries to hold on to it, the bitter truth is that it is not sustainable.
It will surely die.
Those people that said “together we stand, divided we fall”, did not lie . All those stories about a single broom stick and the whole bunch , about where two or three are gathered were not just mere stringing of words together or for want of fancy words.

That is why a boat moves faster with two people rowing at different ends of the boat.

The fact that the other party is making an effort is motivation enough to continue to make yours. That is the drive that keeps you going especially when the going gets bad.

It’s the life boat you hold on to when the ship is sinking.

It’s the tube of oxygen when there is no air,

To sustain long distance , you need a sustainability plan. You need a life line.

You need a willing partner.

A dedicated one.

Let Me

Baby let me love you
Fill up that hole inside of you

With buckets of love. 

I’ll be there for you 

Through the good and the bad 

Through stormy weathers

Through sunshine and rain

I’ll rub your back like I know you like

Let my lashes caress your cheek every night

Like it did last night