Foolish

The stirrings in the pit of my stomach

That warm feeling I get when I hear you laugh

You know that laugh you do when I say something that makes your heart sing?

This feeling I get like I want to coat you, smear you all over me.

Like I want to roll myself into you like egg in egg roll.

The way your voice lowers a little when I call you “baby”.

The way my heart feels when I hear you say “I miss you” . Like its being pulled out of it’s cavity.

The way I blush and smile when I know someone at your end is listening to us say sweet nothings.

All those things, coupled with the way I hold my pillow tight when I talk to you makes me say to myself 

Foolish girl! You are in love!

It’s a good feeling and I like it

Still the air I breathe

A beep and then I rush to my device
Eager, Ready to read another
Then there she is
The one that’s your other
What did I expect?
She is still there.
They are still there.
Forever will be. Maybe.
But do I care?
Only my heart can tell.
When there is a clang where my beat should be
When I see her there again
Where my name should be
When I see them there again, where my name should be
Is this how my life will be?
Forever fighting them for you
Forever fighting her for you
Will I ever see my face in your heart?
Hear you say my name in your sleep?
Maybe, maybe not
Until then, You still are, the air that I breathe.